At the time, this was one of the most devastating experiences of my life. I had a dress, I had a D.J. and venue, and I had a whole life and future planned that was never going to happen. It took a long time for my denial to break down, but ultimately it was a blessing the relationship ended. I learned authenticity mattered and thankfully married someone who loves me exactly as I am.
There was a year where I began to dissociate regularly and I had no idea what was happening to me. I struggled with being detached from my body as well as a whole slew of strange, inexplicable symptoms. The gift of this often harrowing time in my life is it forced me to address underlying pain and loss I had been unable to face until then. This undoing is ultimately what saved me and led me here to you. It has guided this path so that I may help to guide yours. I am forever grateful for this.
While the job didn’t end how we planned or anticipated, it helped us reach for our dreams. We moved to where we always wanted to live. I have never loved a place more than where I live right now. Every time I cross the boardwalk to walk on the beach I am grateful.
I love our life here.
Right now I am going through some challenges as well. I’m sure I will write about them in the future, but until I am ready, I take comfort in knowing through the darkest of nights the dawn always breaks.
What gifts do I have yet to see?
I hope all your stories are beautiful.
